Dear Allah, forgive me :'(

Death- It keeps me thinking over and over again. Of how not ready i am to face it. Looking at the way i bring myself up, my lifestyle, and the most important thing, my relationship to Him, deep down inside i know it's still far from enough. How can i say i'm ready when i'm obviously not? :(

It's been written in the Quran that all mankind will sure have a taste of death. I keep asking myself, do i want to die like this? Full of probably all the 7 deadly sins and still can laugh about it all the way. Death is nearer than anyone could ever imagine. Some might think i'm being over-reacted for taking this subject too seriously. But truthfully, i do. How can i be ok when i did something Allah forbid? How can i easily accept things i shouldn't and take it for granted thinking that the future will always be there for me when i'm ready to repent? Why do i let the dunya to control me?

Imagine, buried alone deep down the underground and having to unwillingly reveal the truth without a single thing to hide. Am i willing to face the punishment? Even i whine over a prick of a needle. So there, how can i say i'm willing to face Allah's greatest punishment? Committing one sin of the dunya, the punishment is unbearable for one to handle.

Islam; It is the most beautiful religion on earth, way beautiful than the most enchanted things on the planet. If one is willing to seek Allah, he will experience the beauty of Islam like no one ever did. Comparing it to the dunya, the dunya is only a temporary pleasure that had merely destroy most mankind nowadays.